Bah. I am bad at updating. Here's session 3 of my tattoo.. finished all the black.. color next time and then white for my last session.


Right after my session, pictures courtesy of my artist, EZ.

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Not much is new.. I'm out of school, working more, taking summer classes online, gradually getting back in the game.. My hair is getting so long and I want to cook with my friends more. I need to start taking pictures again. I want.. breakfast.

Recent incidents have caused me to go back and read several of the entries I have posted here. Some of it was laughable (most of it), some of it made me sad. Sometimes it felt like I was reading about someone else. I even traveled all the way back to my 18th birthday. It's weird to think how much things have changed since then.
I have the strangest feeling in my heart lately. I should be happy, I have everything that should make me happy, but I still feel empty in a heavy way. I don't know what I'm looking for, really. And sometimes (most of the time) I'm not sure what I really want from myself, or anyone else.

Aside from that, I am content. I joined a gym with Ethan.. Peak Fitness, it's very nice and I'm loving the fact that I'm doing this now. We are going to West Coast Tattoos tomorrow to bring art and talk about artists/appointments. It's really real almost! My 19th birthday is Sunday. I don't know what I'm doing then.. it depends on whether Scott is returns from Georgia early enough for a birthday dinner with all of us. I know I'll want to spend time with my family though that day. This past weekend was super, getting to see old friends and hang out with my favourite asshole, Cat. What an adventure.. I can't wait for school to be over. This semester was too boring.

Uhhh here are a few pictures from the other weekend that Ike (one of our regulars who has become a good friend of mine) emailed me today:


L to R: Will F. (my coworker), Spirit (another semi-regular), me, Ike's fiance Mia (she's from Finland!), Ike

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That is all right now, just wanted to check in. I'm off to work on my design again. :P

Sunday, my manager Scott and I spent the day together and went to Tiger World! There were no cubs to play with at this time but it was still fun. It's the most ghetto park ever by the way.. Sigh, only in North Carolina. Oh and a tiger tried to pee on us. No seriously, she backed her butt up against the fence and tried to shoot her pee at us. Thankfully, no one got hit.



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I haven't updated in a long time, I don't even know where to start.
I'm actually taking the time to update because I'm done with all the school work I can do and the WoW servers are down for maintenance for extended time! Hahah, I do still check my friends page every day though, by the way.
Let's see, I know it's over halfway through January, but I had a good Christmas and a good New Year too. I hope you all got what you wanted and rang in the new year with your loved ones like I did! I didn't really ask for anything specific but I got some wonderful things. I received Wrath of the Lich King (which is the one thing I did ask for), game time cards, 2 tops, a hat, and a sewing machine which I have still yet to open. I also got the cutest AA kitty hoodie and a big stuffed panda from Will :) I got him a ring from Jared's since his other was lost or stolen or something. It's titanium with gold plate accents and a small diamond, it's also engraved. I'm just glad he liked it.
I just started my second semester of college, I finished out my first one with straight A's so hopefully it will stay that way. I like all my classes so far!

Here's a few pictures.. I need to start taking more, seriously. Actually like all of these are of Will and me hahah, but that's because I spent like 99% of the month break with him.

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In other news I forgot how much going to the mall alone was stupid. But i got some new makeup that I was out of and just opened it today..


^ Also my new green lenses

Did I mention today was a snow day? No classes :)

Haven't updated in a while.. I've just been busy :P One more final on Friday; It feels good to be practically done with this semester!

I keep writing up drafts on this journal and then I don't post them. Things are really so good. And the rumors are true, I've been playing World of Warcraft for the past couple weeks. I always hated it because it took people away from me but since I'm incapable of taking it too seriously, it's been a lot of fun for me. I can give you a million reasons why but let's just say I have more fun spending time with my friends and we spend more time together. And of course, the fella and I have but another thing in common :)

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Speaking of Will, after months searching for a specific something, I finally found the perfect one for him. Just in time for Christmas, too!

Speaking of Christmas, if any of you still want a card, but haven't told me already, just go back a few entries and leave me a comment with your address.

AND allow me to introduce..

the blog :) Still under a bit of construction.
New features:
- Winter lip care
- Eyebrows
- Brown and gold eye makeup

And if you're not gonna go through all that girly stuff at least check me out with blue eyes:

I'm currently working on a Geo Lens review.

I love my math professor. There was this outrageous, erroneous word problem on our second test(apparently we're the guinea pigs for the new program so all the assignments and tests are new to even the professors so no one caught it). Anyway, I started listing what I was looking for on my scratch paper and wrote down:

"LCM
LCD
WTF"

And when I got back my graded test he put next to it "LOL IDK"

Holy crap.

In other news I'm in the process of starting up a new blog via Blogspot, with stuff that's not my personal life. Obviously I'll be keeping up with this journal just the way I have been but I'll think of it like a side project! It will be a mess of stuff. Fashion (or something like it, I hate that word), inspiration, make up, organization, random tips, tricks, and recommendations about anything and everything! Hopefully I'll be working on various projects too this way and this thing will just figure itself out!

I am so ready to get a tattoo. That's what I want to give myself for Christmas this year, ha ha.



I stumbled upon some old pictures and realized that I'm actually glad I went through my acne phase as a preteen. As much hell as it was, I don't break out now that I'm older and it's neat to have grown out of it for the most part. I don't need photochopping anymore haaahah. I still have horrendous scarring but it's fairly easily concealable and when I'm older I'll fix it for good.
I'm glad I've grown out of a lot of things, come to think of it.

I got my Japanese shirts yesterday in the mail!! I will take pictures this weekend.

I NEED to start working out. I don't even know how to get started... I've never worked out in my life. Who here does work out? Help! ._.

Edit: Thanks, Cat. I cannot stop laughing now...

This is the first time I've pulled my camera out since August.

I am terribly blue lately. I just feel lonely, I don't really have any one to talk to. Which I'm sure is as pathetic as it sounds! My life consists of nothing but school and being by myself every day; Which I usually don't mind, but I like it less at the moment. A lot of bad things are happening (not necessarily directly to me) and even though I wouldn't want to talk about them I would enjoy even a short conversation with anyone about anything to take my mind off of it all. I suppose that the good news is that school is going amazingly well.

Anyway, I found this the other day and thought it was pretty funny.

Girlspeak To English Dictionary

Kenneth M. Gibson" kmgibson@flash.net

She says                               English 
---------                              ------- 
We need                                I want
It's your decision                     The correct decision should be
                                         obvious by now
Do what you want                       You'll pay for this later 
We need to talk                        I need to complain 
Sure...go ahead                        I don't want you to.
I'm not upset                          Of course I'm upset, you moron. 
You're...so manly                      You need a shave and you sweat
                                         a lot.
You're certainly attentive tonight.    Is sex all you ever think about?
I'm not emotional!  And I'm not        I have PMS.
  overreacting!
Be romantic, turn out the lights.      I have flabby thighs. 
This kitchen is so inconvenient.       I want a new house.
I want new curtains                    and carpeting, furniture, wallpaper...
Hang the picture there                 No, I mean hang it there! 
I heard a noise                        I noticed you were almost asleep.
Do you love me?                        I'm going to ask for something
                                         expensive.
How much do you love me?               I did something today you're
                                         really not going to like...
I'll be ready in a minute.             Kick off your shoes and find a
                                         good game on T.V.
Is my butt fat?                        Tell me I'm beautiful. 
You have to learn to communicate.      Just agree with me. 
Are you listening to me!?              [Too late, your dead.] 
Yes                                    No
No                                     No 
Maybe                                  No
I'm sorry.                             You'll be sorry.
Do you like this recipe?               It's easy to fix, so you'd
                                         better get get used to it.
I'm not yelling!                       Yes I am yelling because I
                                         think this is important.
  
In answer to the question "What's wrong?"
  
The same old thing.                    Nothing. 
Nothing.                               Everything.
Everything.                            My PMS is acting up.
Nothing, really.                       It's just that you're such a jerk.
I don't want to talk about it.         Go away, I'm still building up
                                         evidence against you.

Since Cat is an insufferable douche (as any decent LJ entry should begin..), I indeed have not made a Scarowinds 2008 post so here you go. Cat's pictures, I can hax them. Slightly out of order I don't know why.


If I look worried, it's because.. I am.

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uhhhhhh

Oh yeah I got one of these thangs:


Practically fr33. Because my dad's new thing is fixing up broken iPods so he fixed this one, got a new case, and it's like new. I haven't listened to it much yet/updated it but whoever had it before had some good music that I'll be keeping.

Sorry I'm doing more telling than showing, I need to start taking pictures again.. I will start this week!

I am such a happy camper. I had the best weekend ever! Will came home Wednesday night and he made lots of time for me every day until he left. He even came to school with me Friday and even brought his little backpack (not to be confused with any kind of spawn of The Backpack)(Don't ask) and I know the Victory Coffee people will never leave me alone about him now ;) We just had so many fabulous dates in and out and I'm just so incredibly lucky ;~; Yesterday was our official 6 month, woohoo!

If I get to dress up for anything Halloween related *stares at Cat* I know what I'm gonna be.

Only, way cooler than you'd think.

For my Communications group project, we're doing the media's influence on confidence and we're all dressing up as media personalities (Britney Spears, Paris Hilton, Beyonce, David Beckham...) and I'm gonna be Tila Tequila. The thought of me being Tila for school is funny as shit (and I thought of you, Becca(tilaaaaaaa!)!. Damn she is so annoying.. but we're gonna ham this up as much as possible and it's gonna be fun as hell.

Anyway I'm finally being kicked into shape and it's about time. I'm more organized than I've ever been (like almost scary organized) and doing well is getting to my head (in a good way, I think). It's just such a drastic change from who I was. I'm actually ready to go back to school tomorrow which is so weird. By the way..

( My favourite organizational sites lately: )

Well that's enough of that.. I start my math class tomorrow :[ not looking forward to getting up so damn early. I'm going to have to start simplifying my morning (aka my make up) routine even more.

Everything's all good again, sooo good and Will's home and I'm so excited for the rest of this week ^_^

I re-dyed my hair, now it's pretty much my natural colour.

Since I never ever buy anything completely new other than food (hahah) I'm getting ( these Japanese tops: )

Today's my last day of College Student Success! I mean dammit seriously? that class was special like hey stop eating the paste special. I saw an adviser yesterday but not the one I wanted to see and she wasn't really listening to me and what I wanted. Although she was nice I guess but she kept pushing the degree plan on me even after I said I only wanted to stay a year. I'm going ahead with Math 080 just so it will show that I'm going in the right direction even if it doesn't transfer. I guess I would've lost my full-time student status if I skipped out on it any way. I'm just going to start literally rolling out of bed and leaving.

Also, I don't like Ben Folds and I hardly listen to Regina Spektor nearly as much as I used to, but I can't stop listening to this song!

"You Don't Know Me" - Ben Folds (feat. Regina Spektor)

So midterms have just been announced to come out next week and everyone in my CIS class is shuffling to see what they have in the professor's grade book but for some reason I've never been one to do that whether I knew I was doing decent or bad because I'll find out in a few days anyway (I'm starting to think I'm the only person like this). So after all the chaos he comes up to me and he's all "You have an A. Actually you have the highest points in the class." this happened like 2 seconds ago. First time for everything, yeah? Probably prouder than I should be.

Hahahah ohh boy what a Saturday night, party party party -_- I just wanted to test out my video on my webcam.. so this is for you guysssss. Happy folding ;P

I never noticed how I purse my lips when I talk but now that I see it I can feel it. Oh boy I need to fix that.

i feel very alone today :/ i've been crying all afternoon half for pain and half for just other issues making me so sad.

i got new glasses yesterday. not that i want to wear them all the time now or anything but at least i can see and they're cuter than my old ones. they're havana and pink.



i'm already tired of my hair and i'm starting to feel less pretty as i get older. i can't really dress up anymore being in college, it would just be ridiculous. i just look so awkward and blah all the time in all aspects, hair make up clothes.. i don't know how it got this way or what to do about it. someone make me hot please hahahah

but i had a really good lunch with becca earlier today which makes things better and hopefully we can find fun things to do in charlotte this year.

NOT go see Babylon A.D. if I were you.

I saw it today with Jordan and Ozzy and in the words of The Glen Sigmon upon finnishing Army of Darkness, "I feel soiled. I'm going to go take a shower." It was that horrible. There was almost a repeat of the Wickerman tragedy, standing up, throwing my arms up over my head yelling, "I WANT MY LIFE BACK" over and over. Vin Diesel had approximately one line every time he spoke, and it was just.. bad.

But I did have fun with those kids, we went to the halloween store too. And Ozzy is so crazy he insisted on paying for all of our lunches and tickets because "paying for other people makes [him] feel good" o.o it was really sweet though. He's probably the only fashion student I will ever like! He's like the bisexual male version of me (so basically he's like half of me?), so bubbly and giggly. Jordan tried on these hooker platform heels and he walks better in them than I probably ever could. The workers complemented ozzy's $400 investment (kilt) and talked with us about Purgatory which I really want to go to one of these days.

besides my almost daily re-realization that i might be working my ass off for absolutely nothing.. today was really good. i think i'm having a beginning of life crisis. i re-downloaded my designing programs in hysterics and proceeded to dive into several rasters at once in an attempt to start building a portfolio. don't get me wrong, i love life. but im gonna snap one day i can feel it.

i hate job hunting! i'm so picky someone please give me some good advice since i've never had a real job :(

any way i haven't heard from best buy but i don't really want that anymore. harris teeter is looking for a cake decorator so i applied. and its 2 miles from my school i heard they pay well and it's perfect and it's fate D: cryyy.. i'm not getting my hopes up though because i'm having a hard time, not having any job experience. meh i'll probably have to settle for something not so awesome. but i want it to be something i like because i really want to start working so i can work A LOT and make lots of money for next year. im already crunching numbers. honestly with what i want to work i'd be qualified as full-time most places.

but also another downer is i'm taking 14 credits this semester, but only 10 are transferable (i have a prerequisite math that isn't college level). the universities i've looked at require 30 minimum. so.. i'd have to do 20 credits next semester. although i emailed and asked if i could be working on the credits when i apply and they said that was fine it's probably gonna be hell. im never trusting representatives to make my schedule ever again.. i could've taken 1 or 2 more classes this semester to help. i also could've tested out of CIS but they never told us we could. i could've also taken ACA online because it's just a class on how to be successful in college ._.

i intend on working my hardest this year to get what i want it just kind of really sucks anticipating the stress. i better get what i want.

i had a sassy hairdresser and not the good sassy and then she was criticizing my current hair cut growing out which i don't mind because i know it looked like hell and she was like "where did you get this done?" and i was like "..here." which was absolutely true by the way hahahhaha.


no bangs feels naked i've had bangs for so many years now they're hard to give up.

but will helped me pick out the style and liked it a lot so i trust that most. we had amazing dates this weekend i miss him already.

( sorry i'm all rough lookin it's been a nonstop day. )
today was an awesome day i had good classes, played on photoshop in CIS hah. made an appointment to see an adviser on the 15th in ACA (i really wanna know how soon i can transfer hah) had pizza with brian and briton. then i went to meet david and jordan and their friends at saigon palace which was wonderful i had pineapple bubble tea. but now i wish i had gotten some of their amazing food but i was full already. someone come with me or i'll go alone! hah! i came home for an hour then had my night class which ended an hour early. i was dreading COM because last class was awkward for me because i didn't feel like talking to anyone and my group was the same. but today i finally introduced myself to the kid i sit next to which is probably the most outspoken social person in class actually. he's really cool. we had a group thing again and my new group this time was way less awkward and i threw in my input and volunteered to be in our skit and if you people knew what public speaking does to me you'd be proud. will has been looking up apartments for us tonight and sharing them with me and it warms my little heart so much it's really quite sexy. but he seems to have e-died completely so i'm gonna call it a night since i can't stay up any longer :P

i'm drinking the best peach smoothie from our little cute little cafe thing they sell ramen bowls too but i am not eating one of those. i can't wait til it's cold so i can try the japanese sencha tea on a chilly day. things are good right now! i just aced my first college exam. my car has a full belly of gas and i never refer to her as unicorn because i forget and you would all think i'm even more nuts if i said my unicorn had gas. so i got to leave even earlier since i finished my exam in like 20 minutes so i'm just chillin checking my vitals and everything. that is one thing i so love about classes is they don't keep us longer than they have to. got my smoothie and left a tip because the dude was nice. tuesday i had the BEST encounters with every cashier i encountered. especially the guy at an asian mart i found by accident. he was so bubbly and i want to be just like him when i work. oh yeah i put in an application for best buy they're taking so long to get back to me though. i spent $15 on american psycho because i wanted to read it that bad :[ hopefully it's good. i need to go sell some clothes and books to plato's closet and sell casey's ring to a pawnshop so i can get some money for i don't know why. just everything. how about a tattoo. i got new silver and gold septum jewlery so i've started wearing it down again. the first week i got my septum pierced i bought a dark ring from a stand in the mall and it was in a 14g pocket but i just realized it's 16 when i compared it to the new 16g rings i got. so i accidentally lowered the gauge while it was healing but i was going to any way because everything 14g covers half my face and looks ridiculous.

^ all of that is from thursday. it's friday today and i had one class. i don't have much new to add except will is coming home, to my home, for real tonight and my mom went to atlanta for cam's birthday party but i stayed home just so that i could see him. i'm starting to feel bad that i haven't been to atlanta in a long time but i'll see everyone eventually. but i get paid for taking care of her flowers and chloe. today i made a point to introduce myself to someone in my english class as we were waiting outside the room for class to start and she's so german hahaha. it was a total accident. i also introduced myself to the girl i sit next to. i guess acquaintances are good so what if i'm 2 weeks late in warming up. for every person i passed in the halls and out side i looked them straight in the eye and said good morning or good afternoon. we got our first papers back today and my professor wrote so many all good comments which made me feel good because i hate writing essays. i dyed my hair today and it is "roasted coffee" who knew that roasted coffee was red. i think i like it i've only looked at it once while it was drying so i don't remember.

this is what my hair looked like this morning before colouring/what it looks like every day when i wake up:


good lord the circles under my eyes are horrendous. set back of my filipino genes D: this is even after i went to the mac counter and had a makeup artist specifically choose a product and concealer colour for me :[ and i get enough sleep!

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i'm sure i'll be taking pictures tonight or something.